Chapter 1 · Chapter 1
The envelope trembles in Marcus Chen's hands, and I know—I absolutely know—this is it.
Five years. Five scripts. Five blockbusters that transformed him from a struggling actor with a pretty face into Hollywood's golden boy. And tonight, at the Pinnacle Awards, he's finally going to tell the world about us.
About me.
I'm tucked in the fourth row, not beside him—we agreed it would be more dramatic if he called me up during his speech. My dress cost three months' rent, emerald silk that Marcus said matched my eyes. He picked it out himself two weeks ago, kissed my temple, and whispered, "I want you to look perfect when everyone finally knows you're mine."
The presenter tears open the envelope. "And the Pinnacle Award for Best Actor goes to... Marcus Chen for 'Shadows of Tomorrow'!"
The theater erupts. I'm on my feet, hands clasped so tight my knuckles ache. Marcus rises like a king, all sharp jawline and calculated humility. He buttons his Tom Ford jacket—the one I helped him choose—and strides to the stage.
Our eyes meet for half a heartbeat. He winks.
My chest floods with warmth.
"Wow." Marcus cradles the crystal trophy, his voice thick with emotion. The same voice that reads my scripts aloud in my apartment at 2 AM, testing dialogue. "This is... I don't even have words."
I laugh softly. Yes, you do. I wrote them for you last night.
"First, I have to thank the Academy for this incredible honor." He's following the script we rehearsed. My pulse quickens. "To Director Hammond, who trusted me with this complex character..."
Standard thank-yous. Building to the moment.
"To my parents, who supported my dreams even when I was sleeping on their couch at thirty..."
Laughter ripples through the audience. I'm barely breathing.
"And to someone who believed in me when absolutely no one else did, who saw potential where others saw just another failed audition..." His voice drops, intimate. Vulnerable. "Someone whose vision transformed my entire career..."
This is it. This is—
"Cassidy Lane."
The name hits me like a physical blow.
"Cassidy, you were my first co-star, my first real friend in this brutal industry. When I was ready to give up, you told me I had what it takes. I'll never forget that kindness."
The camera cuts to Cassidy Lane—former A-lister, current has-been attempting a comeback—dabbing at her eyes in the front row. The front row, where Marcus said the seats were "all taken by studio executives."
She blows him a kiss.
He catches it.
My hands fall to my lap.
"To my incredible team—my manager David, my publicist Sarah, my stylist James. You make me look good, literally and figuratively." More laughter. "And to everyone who worked on 'Shadows of Tomorrow'—this belongs to all of us."
He raises the trophy. The orchestra swells. He exits stage left.
He didn't mention me.
Not my name. Not "my writer." Not even a vague "someone special."
Five scripts. Five years. Five movies that wouldn't exist without me.
"Brilliant Minds." "The Last Goodbye." "Fractured." "Beneath the Surface." And now "Shadows of Tomorrow."
Every word. Every character arc. Every scene that made critics call him "the most versatile actor of his generation."
Mine.
My phone buzzes. Marcus: *Backstage in 10. Meet me at the west exit like we planned.*
The theater's already moving to the next category. I stand on numb legs, muscle memory guiding me through the maze of backstage corridors. I've been here before, always in the shadows, always waiting.
The west exit is deserted except for Marcus and his manager, David Sterling. They're arguing in harsh whispers.
"—told you, the timing isn't right," David hisses.
"I promised her," Marcus says, but his voice lacks conviction.
"You promised her a lot of things. She's still here, isn't she?" David's tone is acid. "Elena's devoted to you. That doesn't change whether you announce it tonight or next year."
"But I said after the Pinnacle—"
"And overshadow Cassidy's moment? She's staging a comeback, Marcus. You two have history. The press is already eating up that clip of her crying. If you suddenly announce you've been secretly dating your screenwriter, it kills her momentum and makes you look calculating."
"I am calculating," Marcus says flatly. "Elena makes me calculating. She makes me everything."
My heart lurches. See? He does understand—
"Exactly. Which means she'll understand this too." David's hand lands on Marcus's shoulder. "She loves you. She'll wait. She always waits."
Silence stretches.
"You're right," Marcus finally says. "Elena gets it. She gets me. That's why..." He trails off. "I'll explain it to her. She'll understand we need to protect Cassidy's narrative right now."
"Smart man. Now get back out there—Variety wants a quote."
Footsteps approach my hiding spot behind a equipment rack. I should announce myself. Step out. Demand the recognition I earned.
But I already know how this conversation ends.
I've written this scene a hundred times. The devoted woman, the ambitious man, the broken promise. I know every beat, every excuse, every manipulation disguised as reason.
I wrote Marcus's entire career.
I won't write this ending.
I slip away before they see me, exit through the service entrance, and walk three blocks in thousand-dollar heels before my phone explodes with texts.
Marcus: *Where are you?*
Marcus: *Elena??*
Marcus: *We need to talk. I can explain.*
I stop under a streetlight, the Pinnacle Awards theater glittering in the distance. My phone rings. Marcus. I decline.
It rings again.
Again.
On the fourth call, I answer. "Congratulations on your award."
"Baby, where did you go? I'm worried—"
"Who are you without me, Marcus?"
Silence.
"I'm serious. You just won the industry's highest honor for a script I wrote. Playing a character I created. Using dialogue I crafted specifically for your voice. So I'm genuinely curious—who is Marcus Chen without Elena Hart?"
"That's not fair—"
"You thanked Cassidy Lane. Your co-star from one failed rom-com seven years ago. You thanked your stylist. You didn't thank me."
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Without Me